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Reaching and stretching doing my best trying to grasp control over my future over the unknown. Is it really true? That sometimes you can do one little thing that sets off a ripple effect? Something that only seems so tiny and insignificant can drastically change your future, your life? If only I could look ahead and see all the repercussions of my actions then maybe, just maybe, I could make all my decisions more rapidly and confidently. I will just have to be patient and wait until I know for sure in my heart what direction I need to pursue. But thats life right? Right when you think you have it all figured out, everything c

I feel as if I keep returning to this dreaded place. My vision is clouded and it is difficult to breathe. Everything around me begins to spin as do I until I cannot keep my balance any longer. There it is creeping up on me again. That familiar feeling of helplessness. When I open my eyes I'm on the floor and everything is finally still. I'm alone but strangely not afraid. "I am used to this, its nothing new" I tell myself. As I stand and dust myself off, I can't help but think of you. Its funny really, that someone like you could really make me feel this way. *k*

How is it that your eyes can so effortlessly see straight though me? All the strength I have inside of me suddenly feels like it has melted away in an instant. I have always told myself I would never let this happen so quickly to me again. I guess it was bound to happen eventually. I just didn't expect it. I'm sitting here asking myself will you really still be here in the long run if I let you in? Damn, too late, it has already begun. We will just have to wait and see... The only thing I ask of you is just to love me. Thats all I ask... That is all I want from you. *k*